Muzzily Muddled

The life and times of a 30-something recent law school graduate trying to understand the past, figure out the future and scrape through the present in one piece.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

So Thankful for this Restorative Summer

I am incredibly thankful for every moment of this summer.  As a collective experience, the past several weeks have reminded me of who I used to be and who I want to be again.  And that is an incredible blessing.

The name of this blog perfectly illustrates how my life has been for a good bit of time.  I've just felt mentally muzzy all the time, like I wasn’t quite on top of my game and couldn’t focus when I needed to.  And I've felt completely muddled, as if I had no center and no real direction.  I’m certainly not saying that those feelings are gone!  I think that I’m just that type of person who tends to be muzzy and muddled at times.  J  That’s ok with me! 

But it’s incredibly refreshing to feel like I’m standing on solid ground again.  I had a great experience with my two summer classes, so much so that I’m more excited about starting the fall semester (3L!!!) than I had any expectation of being.  I also had an amazing experience with my summer associate position, and it restored my confidence that I made the right decision to go to law school in my 30s.  This is work that I thoroughly enjoy, and it’s also work that I am genuinely good at.  It's work that I will be happy doing until I retire.

Plus, the biggest weight on my mind for the past two years has been lifted, in the most amazingly perfect way.  I’ll get into more detail about that in the future, but suffice to say that I am blessed.  Blessed and very, very happy. 

I’m the glass-half-empty type, so this feeling of peace and contentment is pretty novel for me.  So again, I am so very, very thankful for the way my soul has been restored this summer.  I cannot wait to get started with my last year of law school and the next great adventure in my life.  Come what may, I know that I will always be a stronger person for the experiences of the past year or two.  

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